In a world that moves so freakin’ fast, the subject of time permeates my experience. And whether I resist the moment I am in or fully embrace the life that is happening all around me it is clear that there is choice in how I react. Freedom. Deep breath. Full honor of my being.
The conversation has nothing to do with arriving late, or early. This is the kind of time that allows me to show up in every moment. My wish is that I can journey through the thought that there is time for everything. Creating ways to make life feel more spacious amongst the rigors of work, family, and friends. I am obsessed with the cultivation of sacred space wherever I am, and the realization that true success is the conscious manifestation of joy in every moment. How about that? JOY in every moment. The shear attempt my brain and body make to harness this rich realization softens my animal body and my hope is that I am intrinsically and extrinsically aligned with my spirited mind and sensual soul.
AND, I get tripped up. Why? Well, because I am human and that’s what happens. I fall off my unicorn and my sparkle starts to dull. It happened today. In fact, I have moments everyday where I catch myself wasting time. As I become more practiced at observing myself in these moments I can tag my colossal time suck under the dreadful umbrella of “I’m not enough (fill in the blank)”
I’m not pretty enough, I’m not tall enough, sexy enough, smart enough, rich enough, loved enough, talented enough, athletic enough, thin enough, relaxed, wound up, strong, light, lifted, busy…
Today I scream ENOUGH!!! There is absolutely NO time in life to not feel enough. I can be scheduled back to back or completely spacious, however there is NEVER time to not be enough of something wonderful. I no longer have enough time to feel anything BUT beautiful, courageous, wholehearted, authentic, primal, instinctual, intuitive, happy, radiant, vivacious, sensuous, open, electric, spiritual, joyful, or free. There is no time to not love all parts of who I am. My strong body, curved silhouette, happily lined face, magical mind and my hi’s and lows. From the top of my head to the tips of my toes I am perfectly flawed. It is necessary to ALWAYS find time to love every inch of that.
The “how” is a practice of experiencing joy in every moment. Of observing your own thoughts, sitting with whatever they are, while letting them move through you and allowing them up and out. Climb to a higher thought. Just a little bit higher. From worry, I climb to doubt, and from doubt to disappointment. From disappointment to pessimism, to boredom to contentment to hope, to optimism to enthusiasm and eventuallyback to JOY. Go big and climb. Cry, light a candle, listen to music, write, run, cook, sweat, dig in the dirt, scream, dance wildly in your bra and underwear…you get the idea. Kiss the world. It’s big and beautiful and needs your gifts to be shared. So, make time to shine, because there is no time to move through life feeling “not enough.”